Getting Ready to Say Goodbye

some unrelated pictures of my sister and the sunset from my trip home this past weekend

This year has been so rich for me. I spent a lot of time focusing on me, what I needed in order to be happy, and making changes that needed to be made. It makes me sound pretty selfish, and I'm not going to deny it.  I needed to get better and being selfish is what ultimately got me there.  I also think that the time I took to myself taught a lot about myself, and for that I am so thankful.

But the end of 2015 means saying goodbye to being selfish.  It also means saying goodbye to a number of other things.

2016 is going to mark the end of the first leg of my post secondary education experience.  Once April rolls around, my BA will be finished and I will have to figure out what my next move is.  It’s a scary thought, to be out in the world without the cushion of my education to protect me.  Although I took a nine month break from school this year, I always knew it was right there waiting for me.  I feel like the end of my BA is a little more final than just taking a break.  While I can’t do all that much with my psychology degree on its own and there is likely going to be more school in my future, there is a tiny possibility that I won’t be pursuing that type of education any more.  

There are also certain relationships that will see changes come 2016.  I think they've been a little while in the making but I’ve been trying really hard not to let the changes come.  However, there’s no time like the present, and maybe the start of a new year is just what I need in order to be ok with the changes and say goodbye to the way things used to be.  This is going to be the hardest goodbye of 2015.  I was blessed with so many people walking in to my life and being exactly what I needed in order to get through the year and the thought of those people not being there, or at least not being there in the same way, is giving me all of the feels. 

There are a lot of unknowns in the coming year.  However,it also means that there's a lot of room for potentially great things.  Maybe saying goodbye to certain things now means I’ll get to say hello to really great new things in the coming year.